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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

10.06.2025 11:49

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Im still living with it.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

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I never cut or harmed myself..

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

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When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

One cannot live in the past .

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

Have you worn a tight black mini skirt?

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

She found it foreign!.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

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I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

I don,t even have a pension.

Why do some people never get to on a date even though they wanted to? Are they just too ugly and weird for everybody?

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

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Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Can a 40-year-old date a 20-year-old?

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

Where the ultimate outsiders.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

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I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

It was going to be , some day.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

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But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

Have you ever been spanked in front of a group of people?

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

He was dying to do it , i knew.

She was in good health!

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

Would this be the day?

I was scared of men, in general

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Comes on , in middle age.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But, we were locked up after school.

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Who then, do I blame.?

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I was very sick at this time too.

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

Put me off passion for life!!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

(And it was in our own minds.)

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

She loved him until the end.

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

My life is so biszare .

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

I couldn’t, believe it.

My family never makes their pension either.

I have no regrets .

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

Ive learnt so much.

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

This is soul school!.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

Why did i forgive my father ?

But ive been too sick for many years..

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

She married twice! .

I could never make a relationship work though!

He resisted the act ,that day.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

Especially a lifetime of it.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

All the time i was locked up.

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I waited trembling.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

So, i spoilt her more .

I think the readers, may guess!

And i lived it daily.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

I write beautiful poetry .

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Was to survive, this bastard.

We were not on the streets..

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I had hoped to write a book about this .

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I was seconnd youngest,

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

When she asked me how she looked .

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

We all went to grammer schools

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

I will be 64.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

What did i know ?

I know ,a lot about trauma.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

She wouldn,t have been !

They are buried together, in the same grave..

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

He knew the spot.

But it wasn’t much.

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I was 9 years of age.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

I said to her

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

As i do to all so called friends.?

So whats the point in blame.

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!